Yes... I am about to blog about my feelings, because I want to...
First... I am old. Not really old, but I always thought that 25 was old... when I was young. I don't feel old... I am really having a hard time with this birthday, I never thought I would be one of those people that didn't like their birthday... because I love my birthday! Not the case this year! I can't even think about it without getting teary eyed! What the heck!
Second... Friends! I like to say I have friends, but where are they all? Is everyone mad at me? What did I do? I feel like all I do is work, I don't have time for anything else and when I do, all I want to do is rest and relax. Is everyone taking offence to this? This is how I see it.... My single friends don't invite me to do anything because I am not single. My married friends don't invite me to anything because I am not married. My friends with kids don't invite me anywhere because I don't have kids. It is a vicious cycle and I can't ever win... no one ever calls me anymore, it's dumb!
Third... I can't seem to get enough sleep! I can't figure out if it's because it's dark so early or if it's been the stress of moving (oh yeah, I moved BTW) OR what! I am always tired! Which brings me to ...
Fourth... My house, my car, my desk... ALL messy! I am a little bit OCD, I hate it when things are not in order. But I am exhausted and can't find the motivation to clean anything!
BUT on a good note.... I just sat here waisting my time complaining and... I feel good now!
5 comments:
That's sad that you think we don't want to hang out with you because you aren't married too. We have invited you guys to come, and you're just working. It's hard to get together when you work a lot and it's just a busy time of year for everyone. But it's definitely not because you aren't married or have kids too.
Jenny I'm so sorry if I ever made you feel bad. I know I've not been a very good friend but life and kids do make things more complicated and having a kid really make life go by a lot faster.I'm not saying that I don't love spending every spare minute I have with El but Before you know it, its been months since you've seen called or heard form any friends. So I'm sorry and will promise to be a better friend. As long as you and Austin are ok with hanging out with a one year old and not to many people are:)
Oh geeze! I didn't mean to say all that for a pitty party! Sorry! I am super busy, so it's my fault too, but I was just saying... sometimes it feels that way!
Plus I love kids! I am for sure not one of those people that doesn't like it when you bring your kids to get together... I actually like it! Kids are refreshing!
Anywho... I just didn't mean to get apologies! None are needed.
You know what? the ONLY b-day I ever struggled with was the 25th. For some reason, I felt like I was 100 not 25- weird... anyway hang in there! It's good to vent! Love you.
Jen I think we all need to vent sometimes it is so therapeutic! And just so you know you are not old. You are actually very YOUNG! Granted I'm younger than you are..haha jk. But seriously and I would love to hang out with you soon! And I'm not just saying that because of your pity party. :)
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